why am i so quick to doubt
why do i think this way
why am i so afraid
of the problems in my past i can’t begin to change
an anxiety ridden life
makes it hard to survive
never content with what i see
can’t come to terms with my reality
trying to shine for the world to see
i refuse to let it take my identity
dare to be
everyday i think about what i could’ve done
replaying life with a different outcome
i can’t hide there’s nowhere to run
a battle with self that i will never i win
can’t get a grip on what it means
against all odds i live my life
how i always will, drug free
why am i so quick to doubt
why do i think this way
why am i so afraid
of the problems in my past i can’t begin to change
Wonderful dramatic opening, the voice of a black woman in all her honesty, vulnerability and openess. And then one of the fiercest tracks of Zulu, total hardcore: 'Now they are through with me', full of twists and turns, and suddenly ending in a kind of soul-track, brilliant! This is 21st century music at it's best. The end lecture is dramatic and disturbing, spoken again by a black woman. Makes you think. Hesperus